For the past few days, this line from “All You Need is Love” has been my mantra. No matter how prepared you feel for each of life’s milestones, sometimes it can feel like you’re just not ready. I’ve known about what’s coming up in the next couple months for almost a year. I’ve planned for it, counted down, and prepared. Now that it’s here, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed.
It’s not that I’m not ready. I am ready. But I still feel like time sneaked up on me. It feels like just yesterday that we found out we’d be moving sooner than we thought. That was 6 months ago.
The past three years felt like an eternity as we lived through them, but now I’m looking back, and I can’t believe how quickly it seems to have whizzed by in hindsight.
And now we’re in the final countdown of our time here in North Carolina. We’re in the final countdown of this chapter of our lives. Of course, nothing is happening exactly according to plan. It never does, though, does it? It’s not possible to plan for the unexpected, because you never know what life will throw at you.
I’ve spent 25 years trying to dictate the time line for everything. I’ve spent my whole life trying to anticipate the unexpected and plot everything out step by step. Now as we’re gearing up for the most hectic few months of our lives, I’m so tired of trying to control everything.
So I’m taking it one day at a time and reminding myself that I’m right where I’m supposed to be — where ever that may be. I’m recognizing that all of the changes coming in the months ahead are good ones, even if they are stressful. Every curve ball that crosses our path is meant to be there. In the end, everything will work out exactly as it should.
We just need to get through the next few weeks, and then I can breathe again.
You’ll be fine. You cant’ control the waves — all you can do is ride them. Enjoy it
Yeah!
.-= Kacie´s last blog ..A trip to a GFS =-.
Letting go of control is the toughest but most liberating things we can do. Breathing is also good! :-)
.-= The Non-Student´s last blog ..A Day of Being with Just Me =-.
We just need to get through the next few weeks, and then I can breathe again.
No, you need to breathe now. Is this what you expected? Probably not. Planned? Definitely not. Is this life? Absolutely.
I know you’ve done planning and preparation for your move and for your trip. Enjoy what’s in before you now. You can’t get that back. Did it go according to plan? No? So what? Plans are a guide, they aren’t rules, they aren’t absolute.
Life is a journey, meant to be enjoyed as you experience it. Life can’t be planned, as much as we want to. And while I know I’m a few years older than you…..I’ve been where you are (you have no idea) and yet….the joy of that sunrise over Mt Hood on drive to work on the perfect day….it’s the journey that makes the memories.
Enjoy the journey. Life is meant to be an adventure, tame, mild, exotic, grandiose….the best part is, it’s not up to you to decide where you fit. You just have to be open to it.
You’ll be ok……
Everything does work out in the end and just as it is supposed to. :) God sees to everything. Have fun with it all. When the kiddies come along, the time flies even faster than now so hold on!
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